March 2008 Archives
the final decision has been made
and i've been rejected..
Aku ingin membunuhmu.
Mencabut satu-satunya nyawa yang kau miliki. Padamkan birahi kehidupan sinar matamu. Sekap desah nafas harum terakhirmu. Cium getar kematian bibirmu. Dinginkan hangat molek tubuhmu. Koyak gelinjang mesra tubuhmu. Benamkan dirimu dalam pelukan tanah.
Aku ingin membunuhmu.
Mana yang kau mau, mati cepat atau mati perlahan? Aku akan nikmati tanganku cekik leher jenjangmu. Sayat kulit mulusmu. Tembak kepala cantikmu. Tikam jantung yang detaknya menghantuiku. Minumkan racun pada bibir indahmu.
Aku ingin membunuhmu
Renggut semua udara yang pernah kau hirup. Culik semua rasa yang kau punya. Hanguskan hidup yang kau miliki. Jerumuskan kau dalam hampa. Jual dirimu pada seringai maut.
Aku ingin membunuhmu.
Hilangkan bayangmu dari mimpiku. Gerus habis nodamu dari hidupku. Buang semua tawa dan air mata. Hapus rasa kecup bibirmu. Seka rasa keringat tubuhmu. Putuskan gelenyar yang timbul. Saput kabut euforia darimu. Cabut paku cinta yang kau tancapkan.
Aku ingin membunuhmu.
Apakah kau secantik ketika kau hidup? Apakah cacing akan berpesta pora menikmati tubuh dinginmu? Apakah kau akan merayu Tuhan dengan senyum indahmu? Apakah kau akan bertanya pada malaikat mengapa aku membunuhmu? Apakah kau akan kembali untuk menghantuiku dengan roh yang kurenggut paksa?
Aku ingin membunuhmu.
Karena aku mencintaimu.
Dan kau tak mencintaiku.
original writer: Fannie
and i've been rejected..
Aku ingin membunuhmu.
Mencabut satu-satunya nyawa yang kau miliki. Padamkan birahi kehidupan sinar matamu. Sekap desah nafas harum terakhirmu. Cium getar kematian bibirmu. Dinginkan hangat molek tubuhmu. Koyak gelinjang mesra tubuhmu. Benamkan dirimu dalam pelukan tanah.
Aku ingin membunuhmu.
Mana yang kau mau, mati cepat atau mati perlahan? Aku akan nikmati tanganku cekik leher jenjangmu. Sayat kulit mulusmu. Tembak kepala cantikmu. Tikam jantung yang detaknya menghantuiku. Minumkan racun pada bibir indahmu.
Aku ingin membunuhmu
Renggut semua udara yang pernah kau hirup. Culik semua rasa yang kau punya. Hanguskan hidup yang kau miliki. Jerumuskan kau dalam hampa. Jual dirimu pada seringai maut.
Aku ingin membunuhmu.
Hilangkan bayangmu dari mimpiku. Gerus habis nodamu dari hidupku. Buang semua tawa dan air mata. Hapus rasa kecup bibirmu. Seka rasa keringat tubuhmu. Putuskan gelenyar yang timbul. Saput kabut euforia darimu. Cabut paku cinta yang kau tancapkan.
Aku ingin membunuhmu.
Apakah kau secantik ketika kau hidup? Apakah cacing akan berpesta pora menikmati tubuh dinginmu? Apakah kau akan merayu Tuhan dengan senyum indahmu? Apakah kau akan bertanya pada malaikat mengapa aku membunuhmu? Apakah kau akan kembali untuk menghantuiku dengan roh yang kurenggut paksa?
Aku ingin membunuhmu.
Karena aku mencintaimu.
Dan kau tak mencintaiku.
original writer: Fannie
when i want to say i give up,
she ask me not too
when i asked her to give me the answer,
she said please don't push
is it me who don't know how to treated a woman,
is it me who always have ego more than anyone
but i do love you so much....
when i open my blog, i saw this advertise from google adsense
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it's long hard weekend, move in to my new rent house is not easy. need lot's people to help, Aziz & Ika, Pinal, Alik(friend of Dani), Bang Nday, Mpok and my brother Amiko and it's take almost a day. After i got lab exam and take a breakfast at warteg in front of Gunadarma E Building, i going back to the old rent house and take preparation before the truck is come. but it's not enough time to doing all of it. i need to make sure that i don't bring any stuff that not my own.
my new rent house is more bigger then the old one. the bath room more wider, bed room have more space. and the prices is just the same. but the more important thing is i need to buy rice cooker and stove, and some more stuff that i needed. my refrigerator is still off. it's because the line electricity is cannot reach the place where i put the refrigerator. yandra help me out with that problem, he said that he will bought the electricity cable around 4-6 meter.
Dani help me out with providing bucket and bailer, but he forget to bring me ashtray. and the next problem is how to moving indovision parabolic antenna receiver and how to pointing it. cos if i call the indovision call center it will took more money from my pocket.
anyway about the girl that i care recently. i hope you can finish your thesis on time and you take your decision more wisely.
and now i need more rest... am so tired...
my new rent house is more bigger then the old one. the bath room more wider, bed room have more space. and the prices is just the same. but the more important thing is i need to buy rice cooker and stove, and some more stuff that i needed. my refrigerator is still off. it's because the line electricity is cannot reach the place where i put the refrigerator. yandra help me out with that problem, he said that he will bought the electricity cable around 4-6 meter.
Dani help me out with providing bucket and bailer, but he forget to bring me ashtray. and the next problem is how to moving indovision parabolic antenna receiver and how to pointing it. cos if i call the indovision call center it will took more money from my pocket.
anyway about the girl that i care recently. i hope you can finish your thesis on time and you take your decision more wisely.
and now i need more rest... am so tired...
After long waiting here is my cisco ID card, my brother delivery it to me last night. it's look like ATM card, and theres with validity date on it. after it's expire i must retake the exam to get new validity date. Next step is try to get some money for ICND 2 exam and i will have CCNA title.
But in this month lots of unpredictable budget is flow like the water in the river. I still don't get it why am so extravagant. Cash from kotalangsa is already on my mandiri account, and now waiting cash from new client. already create 3 new client from my hosting, it's took 1 Gb space for each account.
But in this month lots of unpredictable budget is flow like the water in the river. I still don't get it why am so extravagant. Cash from kotalangsa is already on my mandiri account, and now waiting cash from new client. already create 3 new client from my hosting, it's took 1 Gb space for each account.
roses are red
violets are violet, not blue
but you...
you are the thought
that touches my soul
you have become a part of me
my favorite part
ring....
ow, my mom call me, then i answer the call.
mom: assalamuallaikum
me: waalaikumsalam, yes mom ?
mom: don, mr. postman have mailed envelope for you, it's from united state
me: wow, is it from cisco mom ?
mom: yes it is, can i open it ?
me: yes mom open it please...
....................
mom: it's your cisco certification, and something in here... wait...
me: hmm, maybe it's Cisco ID card mom,
mom: it's look like ATM card, is that Cisco ID card look like that ?
me: yes mom it's Cisco ID card. please keep it for me mom
mom: so when will you go home to take it ?
me: maybe soon mom, this friday i hope i can moving to other rent house. and saturday as you know i have class, and sunday got lab practice. maybe soon i will got those package delivery.
mom: oh, ok, i will keep it for you
me: thanks mom.....
mom: ok then, assalamuallaikum
me: waalaikumsalam
lot's word that i want to tell
but now am speechles.
is it the time ?
is it the time for me to take it serious ?
good please show me the way,
please open my heart and mind
please give me the best
please give serenades in my heart
